MINDFUL Drinking?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

(From March 2021) For Fuck Sake. No!! I got an add on FB for Mindful Drinking (I will no longer see this one. I vehemently hit HIDE AD). Want a mindful drinking habit?! STOP. Another example of how marketing fucks with us. After years of “I’ll drink only on weekends”; No pre-gaming; “Just three tonight”;Continue reading “MINDFUL Drinking?!?!?!?!?!?!?!”

Just a break

(From February 2021) My life is good. Amazing husband, two boys I adore. A job that supports us. A roof over our head. But I’m still tired. Tired of parenting in a pandemic. The word “Mom” is uttered 7 times before I’m fully through the door. The boys, my husband, the dogs…they all need myContinue reading “Just a break”

As Big as the Sun

(From January 2021) Day 103: I’m “Mumma Doesn’t Drink” so naturally I’m finding that some of my truest joy comes from moments with my little boys. Moments that I’m present for. Moments that I can press the Pause button on and really savor. I couldn’t wait to celebrate 100 days AF, but it ended upContinue reading “As Big as the Sun”

Slingshot into maturity

Almost five months. Sobriety has been like a slingshot into a new way of thinking. I can’t hold onto regrets I have about my Dad. I can honor him not by “forgiving” him but by “promising” him I will keep growing up and learning the lessons. When we heal for ourselves, we heal for others.Continue reading “Slingshot into maturity”

The Space Between

This is hard as f$&@. And it’s boring. And it’s scary. And it’s exhilarating. And it’s exhausting. And it’s annoying. And it’s life saving. And that sums up how I feel in one minute in early sobriety. No alcohol for 135 days today. Honoring the space between “what was” and “what’s next”. Damn skippy.

Day 37: SCIENCE, PEOPLE!

Don’t worry. I’m not going on some “mask vs. no mask” rant or hashtag stay-the-fuck-home preach. I’m here to talk science of the body and its functioning. Physiology, baby. So, on my Day 2 I learned how I inflamed my liver with excessive vodka shots. My liver levels were borderline in June 2020. By SeptContinue reading “Day 37: SCIENCE, PEOPLE!”

The wheels on the bus…

Day 25 🙏. I put my little boys on the bus to in-person school today. This is the first time my oldest goes back to school since March 16 2020. And today is my youngest’s first day in Kindergarten. He gets to ride the bus with his big brother! We’ve been waiting years for thisContinue reading “The wheels on the bus…”

Nap Wine

I wish the “mommy wine” culture would go away. Just vanish. All the T-shirt puns. The memes. All the oversized wine glasses. And for the love of god, every single piece of “Pump and Dump” merchandise. Believe me – I’m not claiming to be the first to point out this twisted marketing mess. Goddesses Glennon,Continue reading “Nap Wine”

Oxygen masks

Family can be a strong motivator to stop drinking. But I’m learning that this change really needs to come from within one’s self. It’s like that oxygen mask rule on a plane. Put yours on first then assist others. My husband and I had an argument this morning. I’m sad by how hurtful he isContinue reading “Oxygen masks”

I gave my kids cavities

Bear with me. I took my 5-yr-old to the dentist last Thursday for his regular check-up. All was going well. He sat still, joked with the hygienist, and got a glowing report on his healthy gums. Nice! Then came the X-rays. After a few minutes of review, the dentist came back to talk to me.Continue reading “I gave my kids cavities”